OK so we went to the pedi today for the first round of vaccines. Ugh. She screamed bloody murder, passed out cold in the car seat, fussed and whined when we got home, got fed, and now is passed out in her swing. She never takes naps during the day so I figure this is due to the vaccines. No biggie. She deserves (and needs) a nap!
She also weighed in at 12.13lbs (90%), length 23.25 (75%-90%), HC 41cm (90%).
You'd think I'd be over the moon with these results,but in fact I am the opposite. I'm crushed and I cried after she got weighed. Here is why:
Her last visit (which was a sick visit for reflux) she weighed 12.5lbs. Shedid not stay the same, and she did not gain, she LOST weight. She has really really bad reflux, like to the point of being on the strongest meds you can be on it for a wee bairn. My mother's instinct told me she was not on track and this proves it. She should have weighed in between 13-15 lbs, the doctor confirmed that. So this proves to everyone else that she is indeed spitting up 90% of what she takes in and no I am not crazy. In your faces. All of you.
We are now waiting for a call from the doctor to tell us when we go see the Gastro-Intestinal specialist at Children's Medical Center. *sigh*
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
~She's "ethnic"?!~
Well my MIL has done it..again...said something completely inappropriate and unnecessary.
Yesterday she was over the house as she tends to do every Tuesday. She arrives at 11AM and proceeds to stay until 2PM. Um..ok... Anyways, I have on Days of Our Lives because since being home now with Madelyn I have gotten re-addicted and learned yesterday that Nicole used to be a porn star. Whoa! Or as Chad put it, "and old washed up nymphomaniac porn star"..lol Anyways..on this show there is a character named Lexie. She is Stephano DiMera's daughter from way back. She is a respected doctor on this show and quite possibly one of the only female characters who is not a lying manipulative bitch. Also, her history is that she is half black/half white, so she comes from a mixed background. So. The scene on the TV is Lexie is chatting with Bo in the hospital, and at the time my MIL was chatting with Madelyn. My MIL looks up at the screen, looks back to Madeyn and says, "Oh don't pay attention to her, she looks incredibly ethnic, don't you think?" She then looked at me with a chuckle and I was staring at her with my mouth wide open. I quickly closed it, raised my eyebrows and gave her that subtle look of disapproval.
How do I tell her that saying these things around my daughter is completely out of line? I realize that she was born and raised in Virginia and her grandfather was in the KKK, no lie, they have the robes to prove it..scary..but come on! I feel like I can't even tell Scott now about it because he basically told me he does not want to hear anything negative about his mom ever again. Wtf am I supposed to do? I'm terrified of bringing this up. Not only that, this is not the first time she has done something like this. A few Thanksgivings ago, she said something about one of the football players on TV, "No wonder he can run so fast. He is black you know." My mother was so offended she left the room. And she also had something to say about one of my dear dear friends who came to our wedding. She asked Scott if he was really invited or was crashing the party. Are. You. Serious.
I can't even imagine what she will say if she ever meets my kid's doctor. Who I know I have told you all about. But for a quick refresher, she was born in Pakistan, wears a borderline Bhurka, lines her arms with thin gold bangles, and speaks 4 languages; 2 of which I have never even heard of in my life. She is very educated and an extremely nice lady.
It saddens me that all my MIL can see is the color of a person's skin and not the beauty that lays inside all while letting us all know publically that is how she feels. I'm makes me ill.
Yesterday she was over the house as she tends to do every Tuesday. She arrives at 11AM and proceeds to stay until 2PM. Um..ok... Anyways, I have on Days of Our Lives because since being home now with Madelyn I have gotten re-addicted and learned yesterday that Nicole used to be a porn star. Whoa! Or as Chad put it, "and old washed up nymphomaniac porn star"..lol Anyways..on this show there is a character named Lexie. She is Stephano DiMera's daughter from way back. She is a respected doctor on this show and quite possibly one of the only female characters who is not a lying manipulative bitch. Also, her history is that she is half black/half white, so she comes from a mixed background. So. The scene on the TV is Lexie is chatting with Bo in the hospital, and at the time my MIL was chatting with Madelyn. My MIL looks up at the screen, looks back to Madeyn and says, "Oh don't pay attention to her, she looks incredibly ethnic, don't you think?" She then looked at me with a chuckle and I was staring at her with my mouth wide open. I quickly closed it, raised my eyebrows and gave her that subtle look of disapproval.
How do I tell her that saying these things around my daughter is completely out of line? I realize that she was born and raised in Virginia and her grandfather was in the KKK, no lie, they have the robes to prove it..scary..but come on! I feel like I can't even tell Scott now about it because he basically told me he does not want to hear anything negative about his mom ever again. Wtf am I supposed to do? I'm terrified of bringing this up. Not only that, this is not the first time she has done something like this. A few Thanksgivings ago, she said something about one of the football players on TV, "No wonder he can run so fast. He is black you know." My mother was so offended she left the room. And she also had something to say about one of my dear dear friends who came to our wedding. She asked Scott if he was really invited or was crashing the party. Are. You. Serious.
I can't even imagine what she will say if she ever meets my kid's doctor. Who I know I have told you all about. But for a quick refresher, she was born in Pakistan, wears a borderline Bhurka, lines her arms with thin gold bangles, and speaks 4 languages; 2 of which I have never even heard of in my life. She is very educated and an extremely nice lady.
It saddens me that all my MIL can see is the color of a person's skin and not the beauty that lays inside all while letting us all know publically that is how she feels. I'm makes me ill.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
~More bitching...~
OK so it's official. I hate my body. The only things I can still wear are maternity and sweats. It sucks. I know it will get better because it took my body 9 months to get this way and it will surely take at least that to get it back but it still sucks.
We went to a wedding last weekend (yay for me for an adult night out!) but it cost us so much money because I had to get an entire new outfit. Going to Marshall's or TJ Maxx right now is a frickin' joke, so we had to venture out and spend real money..lol. Scary. So Scott and I went to CHICO'S, J Jill, and White House/Black Market. As much as I liked hiding in the "travel" line of CHICO'S, I am not 50 years old (yet) so therefore it wasn't an option. WHBM was a cruel joke for me. Dear Lord..oh yes and to make myself feel worse I walked into Ann Taylor. I used to work there years ago..I forgot how it is geared towards (really) skinny people. Last resort, J Jill. Oh help.
I told the sales lady this: I just had a baby 7 weeks ago and I hate my body. We are going to a wedding on Saturday. I need something I can hide in. Help. $195.88 later, I had an outfit. It is from their "wearever" line of clothing. A line they always carry and update pieces every season so you can add to your collection to keep it refreshed. Nice. It feels like pajamas (bonus) when I have it on and it is washable (double bonus). I was feeling really good about myself, until we got there and we began the round of picture taking. Two of my very good girl pals were sitting with us (who I love dearly by the way), however, both of them could fit into one of the pant legs pf the outfit I was wearing. As soon as I saw myself in the pictures next to them, I felt like such a whale and could not wait to get the hell out of there and was relieved when 8pm rolled around and we had to get home so I could BF Madelyn.
I seriously almost cried when I saw the first picture of the night. Sigh.
We went to a wedding last weekend (yay for me for an adult night out!) but it cost us so much money because I had to get an entire new outfit. Going to Marshall's or TJ Maxx right now is a frickin' joke, so we had to venture out and spend real money..lol. Scary. So Scott and I went to CHICO'S, J Jill, and White House/Black Market. As much as I liked hiding in the "travel" line of CHICO'S, I am not 50 years old (yet) so therefore it wasn't an option. WHBM was a cruel joke for me. Dear Lord..oh yes and to make myself feel worse I walked into Ann Taylor. I used to work there years ago..I forgot how it is geared towards (really) skinny people. Last resort, J Jill. Oh help.
I told the sales lady this: I just had a baby 7 weeks ago and I hate my body. We are going to a wedding on Saturday. I need something I can hide in. Help. $195.88 later, I had an outfit. It is from their "wearever" line of clothing. A line they always carry and update pieces every season so you can add to your collection to keep it refreshed. Nice. It feels like pajamas (bonus) when I have it on and it is washable (double bonus). I was feeling really good about myself, until we got there and we began the round of picture taking. Two of my very good girl pals were sitting with us (who I love dearly by the way), however, both of them could fit into one of the pant legs pf the outfit I was wearing. As soon as I saw myself in the pictures next to them, I felt like such a whale and could not wait to get the hell out of there and was relieved when 8pm rolled around and we had to get home so I could BF Madelyn.
I seriously almost cried when I saw the first picture of the night. Sigh.
Friday, October 2, 2009
~All hail the swaddle~
So 1 day before her 6 week milestone I decided to swaddle her again at night. Why? Well she flails her arms around a lot and I thought that maybe that is what wakes her up at night. Sure enough. We swaddled her and BANG..slept like a champ. It has been 7 nights now and only 1 mishap. I am so glad I can't even tell you, although I may also be a bit spoiled now with a 6 week old kid who sleeps through the night. I realize it's not exactly normal, but hey, I'll take it.
This came about when at 5 weeks I decided I would allow her to wake me up when she needed me, instead of me waking her up to eat. However, during the day I was still prodding her every 3 hours. Fine. In doing this, she actually went longer in between feedings for some of those nights and less in others. I was wondering how to get some nightly consistency, so I tried the swaddle again, and lo and behold a sleeping baby!
I hope I didn't just jinx myself..oh God that would suck.
Of course Mommy isn't sleeping nearly as well as baby because she is still up every 3-4 hours anyways just to check on the little one. But yay..it's Friday which means Scott gets to monitor the monitor, which means..someone else has the responsibilty..which means I will sleep uninterrupted as long as Madelyn allows me to. Nurse Scott will wake me if she needs me. Such joy! I love weekends!
This came about when at 5 weeks I decided I would allow her to wake me up when she needed me, instead of me waking her up to eat. However, during the day I was still prodding her every 3 hours. Fine. In doing this, she actually went longer in between feedings for some of those nights and less in others. I was wondering how to get some nightly consistency, so I tried the swaddle again, and lo and behold a sleeping baby!
I hope I didn't just jinx myself..oh God that would suck.
Of course Mommy isn't sleeping nearly as well as baby because she is still up every 3-4 hours anyways just to check on the little one. But yay..it's Friday which means Scott gets to monitor the monitor, which means..someone else has the responsibilty..which means I will sleep uninterrupted as long as Madelyn allows me to. Nurse Scott will wake me if she needs me. Such joy! I love weekends!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
~No "ifs" or "ands", just butts!~
So we had out first exploding diaper yesterday. I have to say it wasn't that bad, although I am sure it just a precursor of things to come. A wee bit skirted out the back and hence we had to change our outfit and "Zoo Friends" went into the wash. She was so proud of herself too and gave me a big old smile! In fact, she has started to smile in response to our smiles. Her whole face lights up. It's just precious.
I'm also wondering when she will be in size 2 diapers, seeing we are almost out of size 1. Ok well by the looks of it we aren't almost out, but when you have a kid who goes through like 10-12 diapers a day, then yeah..we're almost out. She is almost 24 inches long and probably 11-12 pounds at this point (just ask my back) so I will just use these size 1's until they are gone and then I'll just switch to size 2.
On another note, I have a freeloader and I have no idea where it came from. I though hemorrhoids were supposed to happen like right after you gave birth and stuff. And I know I had them a bit during pregnancy, although they went away for the last 3 or so months. Hrmm..well I woke up the other day with an almond in my ass. Yes, I bent over with a mirror and looked. I had to know what I was in for. Just in time for ny 6 week pp too. What joy! So out came the witch hazel, store brand tucks, sitz bath and creams. *sigh* Like I have time to sitz? When I get 15 mins to my own, that is not the first thing that comes to my mind to do, you know? Laundry, vacuuming, dishes, swiffering..that is what takes that time. Arg..oh well. Back to the drawing board I guess.
I'm also wondering when she will be in size 2 diapers, seeing we are almost out of size 1. Ok well by the looks of it we aren't almost out, but when you have a kid who goes through like 10-12 diapers a day, then yeah..we're almost out. She is almost 24 inches long and probably 11-12 pounds at this point (just ask my back) so I will just use these size 1's until they are gone and then I'll just switch to size 2.
On another note, I have a freeloader and I have no idea where it came from. I though hemorrhoids were supposed to happen like right after you gave birth and stuff. And I know I had them a bit during pregnancy, although they went away for the last 3 or so months. Hrmm..well I woke up the other day with an almond in my ass. Yes, I bent over with a mirror and looked. I had to know what I was in for. Just in time for ny 6 week pp too. What joy! So out came the witch hazel, store brand tucks, sitz bath and creams. *sigh* Like I have time to sitz? When I get 15 mins to my own, that is not the first thing that comes to my mind to do, you know? Laundry, vacuuming, dishes, swiffering..that is what takes that time. Arg..oh well. Back to the drawing board I guess.
Friday, September 18, 2009
~Bad day already..and it's not even 10AM yet!~
Ok so..today was the big day. A real bath for the little lady. How exciting! The plan was to give her this warm fabulous real bath, dress her in a fuzzy fleecy outfit, then fill her belly to her hearts content, and then lay down for a nice nap. Who wouldn't want that kind of morning?
Apparently God had other plans for me today.
I get the bath all set up, including her clothes, new diaper, and all the other necesities one needs for a succesful baby bath. I follow the instructions on the bath...*snap* goes the bath. Perfect. Should have no leaks according to the directions. I give the bath a once over to make double sure. Looks good. I start to fill th ebath. While filling it I attept to "lock" the incline wedge into place (she needs to use the incline wedge because she can't sit up by herself) and find after much fidgeting, it won't lock, it just rests..hmm...that looks wobbly. Sure enough, it is very wobbly. Grrreeeaaat.
Wait a second..why are my feet feeling really warm right now? I look down. Oh shit. The bath has now leaked at least 3-4 gallon of water all over. On the counter, down the cabinets and lastly all over the floor; soaking my 2 kitchen rugs and running under the fridge and the oven. As I am wrapping my head around this fiasco I hear Madelyn decide this would be a great time to wake up and scream her head off. Jesus. Well I gotta tend to this water, well, at least get the majority up. So there I am at 8:00AM on my hands and knees with bath towels trying to get this water up all while hearing my daughter scream bloody murder from her swing. Gah.
Fine..most of the water is up, so I go get her and we settle down on the couch for her breakfast. it is then I realize I am also soaking wet from the knees down. Awesome.
Have I mentioned I have been awake for some degree since 2AM? *sigh*
I need a drink and it's not even 10AM yet....
Apparently God had other plans for me today.
I get the bath all set up, including her clothes, new diaper, and all the other necesities one needs for a succesful baby bath. I follow the instructions on the bath...*snap* goes the bath. Perfect. Should have no leaks according to the directions. I give the bath a once over to make double sure. Looks good. I start to fill th ebath. While filling it I attept to "lock" the incline wedge into place (she needs to use the incline wedge because she can't sit up by herself) and find after much fidgeting, it won't lock, it just rests..hmm...that looks wobbly. Sure enough, it is very wobbly. Grrreeeaaat.
Wait a second..why are my feet feeling really warm right now? I look down. Oh shit. The bath has now leaked at least 3-4 gallon of water all over. On the counter, down the cabinets and lastly all over the floor; soaking my 2 kitchen rugs and running under the fridge and the oven. As I am wrapping my head around this fiasco I hear Madelyn decide this would be a great time to wake up and scream her head off. Jesus. Well I gotta tend to this water, well, at least get the majority up. So there I am at 8:00AM on my hands and knees with bath towels trying to get this water up all while hearing my daughter scream bloody murder from her swing. Gah.
Fine..most of the water is up, so I go get her and we settle down on the couch for her breakfast. it is then I realize I am also soaking wet from the knees down. Awesome.
Have I mentioned I have been awake for some degree since 2AM? *sigh*
I need a drink and it's not even 10AM yet....
Thursday, September 17, 2009
~Me time~
Yesterday I took some well deserved me time..well of course Madelyn was with me, but it was still me time as far as I am concerned. I said to myself, well the last 10 months have been all about you little lady, mommy needs something. So mommy went out and got her hair done. The last time I got it done was before my baby shower so that was what, June..it's now September and things were looking a bit scary above the shoulders.
Long gone is the blonde. And I mean GONE. I went dark. Like really dark. Darker than my natural color. And guess what? I freaking LOVE it!! I have no idea why I didn't do this before! Oh and I chopped off like 3 inches. I feel refreshed and new, a feeling I needed to feel.
Scott admitted to me the day before he was nervous and wasn't sure if he was ready to give up having a blonde wife. I said, well you can go get another one (blonde wife) but it will cost ya! ;) So he comes home yesterday and was just floored. He really likes it too. Although last night when we hugged and kissed goodnight he was a bit freaked out because it was different hair under his chin. He was like, wait..who are you? Heehee!
Long gone is the blonde. And I mean GONE. I went dark. Like really dark. Darker than my natural color. And guess what? I freaking LOVE it!! I have no idea why I didn't do this before! Oh and I chopped off like 3 inches. I feel refreshed and new, a feeling I needed to feel.
Scott admitted to me the day before he was nervous and wasn't sure if he was ready to give up having a blonde wife. I said, well you can go get another one (blonde wife) but it will cost ya! ;) So he comes home yesterday and was just floored. He really likes it too. Although last night when we hugged and kissed goodnight he was a bit freaked out because it was different hair under his chin. He was like, wait..who are you? Heehee!
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