I almost wish...

..that I could just puke and get it over with. Since week 2 or so, I have been feeling wicked nauseous in the mornings, although usually it is before I put food in my tummy. Also for a bit there it was during, until I discovered that bagels and cream cheese agree with me heartily now in the morning. Until today. I feel so gross that I actually had to call out from work. I already laid down for a while on the bed until the last wave passed. I feel kinda bad because it is such an important day today there seeing we are having a visit from corporate and whatnot, but my tummy and my baby are much more important than that.

Although I do think that if I just went and puked I'd feel better.

I'm dizzy, having hot flashes every so often, slightly blurred vision and my tummy is doing flips and flop all accompanied by a symphony of heartburn style belches. I feel like I have a fever as well, but nope; 98.7F.

First doctor visit is next week, Jan 7th at 11:30AM, so hopefully we can shed some light on what is going on with my body and also get a better idea of when I actually conceived. I say I'm due mid-August..we'll see what the doc says. And I am very excited to report that Scott will be coming with me for the initial visit! I told him that I'd appreciate every visit he could make, although I don't expect him to be there 100% of the time seeing he has to work and take care of us that way, but his efforts would be most appreciated. He actually wants to go to as many appointments as he can, so I'm excited, and grateful.

The never ending headache..

So like at clockwork everyday for the past week I get this headache that over the course of the afternoon and evening morphs into something that resembles a migraine-on-the-way. Horrible. The worst one so far was Christmas Eve when I had to excuse myself from festivities to lie down in the dark and the quiet for a bit..making the excuse of, "I'm so exhausted from work and blah blah blah.." I think Scott's family bought it..at least I hope so.

And the whole not drinking wine/beer in front of people I know is awkward as well. I keep telling people I'm just dehydrated..which isn't a lie actually because I am. Like I wake up in the morning, I choke down my breakfast, brush my teeth and my mouth is sticky..like hangover sticky...and by the time I get to work I could possibly drink Lake Superior.

So because I have been addicted to the water bottle as of late, Scott bought me a camelback brand forever water bottle, complete with a straw..you know no BPAs or whatever leeches out of reused regular water bottles. I love it! So conveneent and it holds 250mL, which is fabulous! Oh, and it's pink too.

So yeah, I know I have to wait until January 7th for the doc to tell me what sorts of painkillers to take..but it's so awful; I can't live like this... So. Much. Pain.

Nausea

So today I felt the first wave of nausea while in the process of consuming my hearty breakfast of 1 egg plus 2 egg whites, on a whole wheat tortilla with 2 slices of cheese, flanked by my famous home made hash browns. Sadly, half my burrito is still sitting on my plate, and during each bite I felt a wave a nausea and my gag reflex kick in. I am still trying to finish it though, seeing I do need all the protein I can get whenever I can get it, so one small bite at a time and hopefully I will be able to choke this thing down. However, the highly acidic orange juice is absolutely no problem. Weird.

I have been burping a lot lately, like those small heartburn burps.

I have also been feeling very tired lately. Conking out on the couch while watching tv during the day for like 15 minute intervals. When I'm at work, in the later stages of my shift, I am a zombie and really don't give a rats ass about educating my customer and the like. I just sit back and let them do whatever, only answering questions when absolutely necessary.

One great thing right now is I no longer feel the need to "suck in" while I am sitting or standing. You know that everyone does it; they suck in the gut, wether it's a real or imagined one, when they are sitting or standing. I really don't care anymore..whatever. Let it go. It will go on it's own accord sooner or later.

II

OK so I know it has been a while since I have posted and well I guess that is ok seeing there is no one but me reading this anyways....

We have been quite busy in this house with prepping and hosting Thanksgiving and then going away on vacation for a week so I am glad, ok not glad to be back from white sandy beaches, crystal blue waters and green turtles, but glad to able to post something..finally.

I got 2 pink lines this morning. *GuLp*

Scott nearly fell over. The mixed look of terror and surprise that was on his face was priceless. I couldn't help it. I laughed at him. he said something to me like, well you're just taking this all in stride..and I was like well, the test really didnt' surprise me in all honesty..it's weird..I can't really say why or put my finger on it..it just confirmed something I think I already knew.

I know I need to call the OB/GYN so they can validate the findings and all that jazz, however, when I called work this morning for my schedule my new boss first said, "Oh you're coming in tonight." And I said, "There is no way that is happening seeing I asked for today off." So after 10 minutes on hold she finally concluded that she had no idea what was going on and said, "we'll call you back." OK well HELLO, it's been over 5 hours now..doncha think you'd have it under control by now? Alas I am going off on a tangent...

Basically I'd liek to call the doc and I can't without knowing my scheduale. Color me annoyed.