It feels like the first time..(sang to the tune of Foreigner)

I'm Mary and my husband's name is Scott. We have been married since 2005. This is our story.

About 5 months ago we made a conscious decision to start a family.

I went and did it..I got a Brazilian. Where there is pain there is pleasure, right? I know sex will become more of a chore now than the proverbial "roll in the hay", so I wanted to make it as "fun" as possible.

Well we tried making a baby for the first time the other night. It was weird. You know..sex with consequences. No one wanted to initiate it; no one made the first move. Eventually I did.

We laughed a lot. We laughed until the point we started to tear up. It was like my husband was a whole new person. So awkward. It was even more nerve wracking than losing my virginity, but yet had that same, "let's just get it over with" feeling. I couldn't even open my legs! I found that I needed to be in control of the situation in order for things to progress.

I'm sure sex with my husband will feel natural again soon enough, but how long will that take?